RP Log: Tomoka and Taka

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Date: Tuesday, April 10th. 9:00 PM.
Rating: G
Summary: A lengthy phone conversation involving Taka rambling about his personality crises and Tomoka being sensible. <3 (Yes, Taka lives! I know, I was shocked too. ;P)



Taka: *dials Tomo's number* .....I hope she's availab--*click*--Ah, h-hello?
Cell phone: Beeep--- beep...
Tomo: *was already in bed, sleeping, so the beeping wakes her up. * Aw crap, who's calling... *sits on her bed and picks up the cell phone from her desk* Hello? *small yawn*
Taka: Tomo! It's, uh, it's Takashi. I'm so sorry, you were sleeping?
Tomoka: *still sleepy* Uh huh, kinda. No use hanging up, though; you woke me up already. *giggles a little* Don't be sorry for even existing, Kawamura-kun.
Taka: All right. So, um. *long pause* How...is...school?
Tomoka: * more awake* Going fine and dandy, and if everything turns well I and Momoshiro will become the advisors for our roommates. *small pause, followed by short laughter* But I don't think you call me only to talk about that, do you?
Taka: What, you? a hall monitor? *chuckles, then goes quiet* Ah, yeah, I guess. Haha.
Taka: I've just been feeling strange lately, ever since....well. You know about Sleepy merging with me, and me getting his....his powers.
Tomo: *listens* Yes, I'll be taking care of the younger student. I do wonder if that includes you, since it sounds like you need help... *voice drops a little* You think Sleepy is coming back, or something?
Taka: No, not exactly. It's more like....I'm still me, but there's times when I get these mood swings. I feel...mischievous, um, or playful almost, and I have urges to just do something reckless. Which is so unlike me. And then I can't even control these powers...I wear gloves all the time because anyone I touch fall asleep, and I....
Taka: *sighs* I don't know what to think.
Tomo: *listens some more* Well, ain't it supposed to be somewhat normal, since after all you *have* several personalities and powers that are activated by such alternate persons, huh?
Tomo: And you're the original personality... I think. Come to think of it, you never really told me about how your powers came in, not even when we were dating...
Taka: ....it's hard to explain.
Tomo: Eh?
Taka: When I was five, I started talking to an imaginary friend, or so my parents thought. But I've always has Burn, I just didn't know how to explain him until I was older.
Taka: The only reason he calls himself Burn is because both of us being named Takashi gets confusing.
Tomo: *listens patiently * So...
Tomo: Mmm... * processes the new info *
Taka: ...ah, I guess....I never had any powers to begin with. When Burn's manifested, it was like...watching someone else go through it. And it didn't make sense, because I should have had powers, too. After all...same body....but...*pauses, shifts position on his bed, rustling of pillows is heard* and so we, um, went on like that for a while...until I met you, and that's when Sleepy...sort of...
Tomo: Used me to come out. *finishes when he's unable to*
Taka: I don't even know what that was. And it was like, he'd been there. The whole time, you know?
Taka: He just needed some sort of...god, I don't know...extra push, so to speak.
Tomo: Only lying dormant, sorta. And when I tried to speak to Burn, he got the boost he needed. *sigh*
Taka: Yeah. *laugh* But it's the split personalities, I think, that h--....well no...it's stupid. Never mind.
Tomo: ... Huh?
Taka: I think they're parts of me I'm missing.
Tomo: Eh?!
Taka: Tomoka, look at me. I'm….I mean, I'm just me. I can't do what Burn does. He's got that energy that he has, and he can just...do whatever he wants and screw the consequences. I can hardly get myself up in the mornings.
Tomo: You speak as if being you was a bad thing, Kawamura-kun.
Taka: ....well, no, but I mean, I've always felt a little empty. Even if there were other people in me.
Taka: ...and Sleepy...he had this...swagger, this confidence. And he was sly...and now, um, he's part of me again. I think that's what's making me have....
Tomo: * doesn't really know what to say, kinda fearing she might make it worse * You're yourself, and that's neither bad nor good necessarily. It just *is*.
Taka: Am I myself?
Taka: God, this sounds so crazy.
Tomo: I knew you as yourself after all. I doubt I can really say anything else about that, at least by now. *tries to sound happier, but is actually worried*
Taka: I just feel like I'm all mixed up. And there's nothing keeping me here at the Brotherhood, really, but I don't want to go back to Ryuhana, because Burn hates it there. And this...part of me that is Sleepy, it's making we want to do things...I shouldn't be doing.
Tomo: Huh? Which kind of things?
Taka: *stammers* Um, y-you know.
Tomo: ... Oh.
Taka: Just thoughts. and feelings. and urges? *pauses* .......I'm sorry
Tomo: * is silent for a while, reminded of how Sleepy almost killed her *
Taka: I don't really think I'm going to do anything stupid, but it's still there.
Taka: And I think that's what bothers me most....are you still there?
Tomo: ... I am.
Tomo: And I'm listening.
Taka: ....What if...what if I were to say I was, uh, not....
Tomo: Not what?
Taka: *takes a deep breath* Burn like girls, but Sleepy....didn't, and...haha...*quietly* um, I think I'm gay.
Tomo: Huh? *blinkblink, more in surprise than disgust or anything like that *
Taka: I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said anything.
Taka: Just forget it.
Tomo: You think I'd forget about you telling me something that important of you? * thinks Taka is underestimating her *
Taka: Well, I mean....what...do you think?
Tomo: Well, that's a part of you. And you're my friend. It's not like I'm gonna kick you or drop you for that, eh?
Tomo: You really thought I'd do that, Kawamura-kun?
Taka: I guessed not.
Tomo: ... Just... Be honest, Kawamura-kun. You ever used me as your straightener, or something?
Taka: I don't even understand it myself. I mean, I think when I was younger I had considered it, but before I merged with Sleepy, it hadn't felt so...strong.
Taka:....no!
Taka: No, I didn't—no.
Tomo: ... I believe you. *sighs, sounding relieved* *Then* I would've kicked you. And sparked you to the Moon and back.
Taka: ....I wouldn't, ever. I genuinely liked you. You were more outgoing than I was, and you stood up for yourself. I guess I was attracted to you because you kind of made up for what I was lacking. And....haha, I'd definitely hate to get hit by one of your lasers. *laughs*
Tomo: Or my photon pulses. Or my blinding lights. Or all the new things I'm learning. *short laughter*
Taka: Sounds like exciting stuff. Burn just makes giant holes in walls and things, he's not too useful.
Tomo: My powers are useful and fun. I might sound flighty, but honestly said... I can't imagine myself without them. *gasps*... Maybe I can't relate too much to you in that sense, sorry.
Taka: *relaxing now that he's shared his stuff* I don't know, I think without powers, I'd still be three--two? people.
Taka: Maybe merging with Sleepy was a fluke, maybe it wasn't the meds I'm on....Burn hasn't shown signs of leaving. Either way, I think I couldn't imagine myself without him, either.
Taka: So I get what you mean. *chuckles*
Tomo: I suppose he's in your subconscious and will remain there. Because I've always found weird how he seemingly disappeared yet Burns stayed around and still is...
Taka: Maybe Burn is just too stubborn. He's like that.
Tomo: Even the most stubborn people can't stay fully unaffected by meds... *chuckles a little *
Taka: Well, I've been taking them regularly, and Sleepy hasn't come back. But I don't want to stop taking them and risk him coming back. The only lucky thing is they're covered, so I don't have to pay for them. Haha, being considered a schizophrenic has its advantages.
Tomo: *snorts a little*
Taka: ....I just spent this whole time talking about myself. I'm sorry....how are you??
Tomo: Wasn't that the point of the conversation in the first place? *smiles* I'm fine, Taka, don't worry about me. And don't underestimate me again... Whether you're gay or bi or pansexual, hey, you're my friend, I'd never ditch you.
Taka: *startled* Thanks. That...that means a lot.
Taka: ...so, um. What should I do about my crush on...uh, a person I know?
Taka: *dies a little*
Tomo: I know. *smiiiiiles a little more* And who is this person? Do I, eh, know him?
Taka: I, ah, don't want to mention his name, because it probably won't go anywhere, but let's just say he's kind of taken.
Taka: I think, I don't really know how he works.
Tomo: Well, honestly said... Following what you know of him, you think he'd appreciate being discreet or open about your feelings?
Tomo: Not to mention you say he's sorta taken...
Tomo: I don't think you'd appreciate causing trouble between him and his boyfriend or girlfriend. Be careful and tactful, yet sincere about it.
Taka: I guess I could just stay a friend. I mean...he's a nice person...*embarrassed* I'm a failure with this sort of thing.
Tomo: Better good friend than bad pursuer and couplebreaker, could it be? *laughs at the other side of the phone *
Taka: I could never do that, though. I'd feel guilty forever.
Taka: Burn would, but not me. *sighs*
Tomo: I know. *laughs again* Better being true than doing such things. Can't tell you if acting like I suggested will work flawlessly, yet it looks like the better thing you can do by now.
Taka: Yeah, I think you may be right. Thanks for the advice. I might, um, talk to him. Or something. I don't know.
Taka: I never really know what he's thinking, so it's hard to tell how he'd respond.
Tomo: Heh, glad to be helpful in any way, Kawamura Takashi. That's what friends are for, right?
Taka: *sighs, relieved* Yes, they definitely are. Um, I should probably get going, Burn has to work tomorrow. Ah, thanks for talking with me. I forgot how much more sense things make when I think about them somewhere other than my own head. And--sorry to push this all on you..
Tomo: No problem, Kawamura-kun. *yawns* It's kinda late and I have to train early, so I think I'll go back to bed. And again, don't be sorry. Better to have you telling me than other people, after all.
Taka: Right. Yes. So....good night, then.
Tomo: Good night. And if possible, see you soon.
Taka: Yeah, sounds good. Night. *click~*
Tomo: Night. *leaves the cell phone on her desk and goes back to sleep with a smile on her face*